Just Me

I was awake till 2.30 this morning, enjoying the quiet of my house with everyone else asleep. I watched 3 movies, and wrote in my journal enjoying the few moments when I am completely and only me. Not Mum, not wife, not friend, lover or daughter. Not school committee member, not advisor or employee. Just me. If I ever wished for a super power it would be that I never had to sleep. I would like every one else to keep sleeping. I love being awake by myself. Unfortunately the next days follows and I regret the lack of REM & non REM.

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