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I’m back – full of inanity and verbiage, not always in that order.A rooster woke me up this morning.Some crazy person has introduced a flippin rooster to the otherwise farm animal free zone of suburban Papakowhai.I give it 3 weeks before someone goes on a suburban style hunting trip.Or is that a poaching trip?It’s been a busy week.The girls had curriculum and performance exams for dancing on Monday and Tuesday. It’s been a while since I have seen Miss C dance and I enjoyed the jump in skill level that was apparent.She is quite lovely.After a few wet days reminding us it was almost winter, Saturday was a beautiful day.The boys had a great game of football in the morning.There was quite a contingent of support for the Taylor boys; two parents, two aunties, two uncles, one cousin, one great aunt.Master J entertained the entire sideline by calling for a video ref (by hand signals) for a dodgy call made by the (admittedly amateur) parent-ref.It was a very pleasant and sun-filled start to a…
It's another particularly splendid Autumn day in New Zealand's capital. I am not sure if the season is an unusually pleasant one or I am especially sensitive to it; a new awareness of the natural beauty around me.It’s been an unusual few days.Monday, I loved my job.Unfortunately for environmental reasons rather than content reasons.I do get to meet interesting people.Tuesday, I hated my job, I was under pressure to prepare financial reports for the quarterly Board meeting, and every thing was going wrong.I had a ten cent problem that would not go away.It took several hours and attempts to find the issue and I eventually had to undo three weeks of bank recs to fix one transactional error.Luckily I managed to do that before our internet/server stopped working.Sigh.I couldn’t find two crucial international invoices, and looked foolish in front of my colleague, who is super organised.It wasn’t actually my fault but I felt stink anyway.I am a square peg in a round hole and I know …

Just another day

Physical...I am loving indoor netball, but am a little perturbed by the two people who have laughed at the thought of me playing netball. I must come across in a different way to how I feel. Wouldn't it be great to get an outsider’s viewpoint of yourself and see yourself as the world sees you. I would really love to get a completely objective perspective of myself one day. Maybe I wouldn't. I have re-discovered my physical nature having been masked for some years in the physical demands of incubating, feeding and nurturing young people with no extra energy to use in recreational activities. I recognise myself in my daughter who is an incredibly physical being. I now have time to explore this side again and realise that your true nature never dies. Even as you mature, you are still you if you allow yourself to be. As a young woman in youth group days I was the the one playing scrag, rugby and all games while the other girls didn't want to get hurt. The boys didn&…

Wednesday the 5th of May - 5th of the 5th of the Tenth

There will never be another today so use it wisely. To grow and love and be. To cherish and honour and protect; to seek knowledge and more importantly understanding. To love and laugh and live. It's our culture to pursue happiness, and develop and seek divinity. You live only once.
Make it count. Love passionately. Live heroically. Laugh uncontrollably till your sides ache and and the medicinal properties of laughing ease your weary bones.

Breathing

Asthma is an interesting condition. I have never had it before, but I seem to have developed a cough and restricted air passages from a recent bacterial infection, which is alleviated with ventolin, a default diagnosis of asthma. It has been an eye opener for me as to how my daughter feels, who does have asthma similarly and usually after the first virus of the autumn season. I sound like she does, I am tired and aggravated and lacking in oxygen. I am experiencing first hand the symptoms I watch her her go through every year.

But as is my custom, I have found it to be an interesting analogy of emotions.

Emotions are like breathing; ignored when under control. In, out, in out, involuntary, unnoticed, invisible. Emotions, as with breathing can be ignored when working well. Then something happens to upset the natural rhythm of the breathing. All of a sudden breathing becomes laboured as does life under emotional stress. Walking, talking, eating, and sleeping becomes an effort and you need …